Paying it Forward

~Bring light to the darkness.~

Background on todays topic:

Hello, today I am going to write about an experience I just had literally a few days ago, and my view point on where I stand with doing this. I know everyone's opinions are going to be different based off their own experiences they may have acquired with doing something like this and you may feel anyway you wish about it and that is totally fine. I on the other hand like to do what is in my heart and go with my feelings or intuition if you will. When I am able to I like to help those in need even when I myself don't have much, so when I do make that decision to help I want to make sure that it is truly going to mean something and that person is truly benefitting from it. In that knowing that I have contributed to helping make a difference even if its a small difference it still matters to me and I am grateful by it, kind of fulfilling for me. In this case this person was deeply in need and was not alone she had two small kids with her and really going through a hard time, felt for her, as I too am going through a hard time and completely relate to her.

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    On this day a lovely Friday afternoon, I had planned to spend the day with my sisters/girls day and make some Tik Toks have some wine and just enjoy the day. We were also planning what we were going to do the following week  for us and kids as Halloween is approaching, we wanted to do a spirit week where we all paint are faces and just have fun each day up until Halloween. So of course to do this we headed out to the stores, where in turn not long after we have parked and gotten out of the car, we met a lady in the parking lot, she was nervous and looked completely broken down, and though I was prepared to hear her ask for money or directions somewhere as she seemed lost and was still in the car, she just proceeded to tell me about what had happened to her and what she was going through and as she is talking I couldn't help but notice her daughter standing in the back seat and her son in his car seat just so cute, such cute babies but not in appropriate clothing for this cold weather.  

    Than when she had asked if I would be able to get her kids some clothing and diapers. I instantly knew that I was going to help her babies, I asked her a few questions just so that I could get a real good feel out of the situation, because I love to help people but I don't like being lied to or taken advantage of because I am a nice person and I know it can happen. So after we spoke more and I got a good look at the babies, I went and spoke more with my sister because she helps me reason through my thoughts and impulses I may have, especially with something like this. And knowing me she knew I was going to help regardless and was even ready to help herself, because we both had things that we related to in this situation. I was was going through a hard time myself when my son was a baby and living in my car, or hotel and on friends couch here and there. So I knew how she felt I also noticed how she never asked for anything for herself and me and my sister respected her more, as a mother your kids come first and you are willing to do and sacrifice anything for them. 

    The mom was also embarrassed she wouldn't stop saying it, and it mad me more sad for her and wish I could have helped more. I made sure to tell her not to be embarrassed and we are not here to judge your situation, however I just wanted to know if they had somewhere to go, and plans to get out of this situation. She did indeed, and was so willing to share everything, I didn't want to know to much because I know how invested I would have been and not being able to help much would have been pointless. So with my sister in agreement and instantly wanting to help, we went into the store and did our shopping and grabbed what we could for the babies even toys! We got two outfits each and shoes for baby girl because she had none! And some booties for baby boy, we made sure to get warm clothing for them as its cold and rainy season. And now that I think back on it I am so glad we did as it is storming today! 

    Now mind you as we are shopping we ae taking our time and looking trough the clothes, as the mom gave me the sizes, but I knew by looking at them I needed to get bigger sizes, not to big, but at least where they could grow into them and they will last a little longer. I also got baby boy cool looking outfits something I would get my own son, and my sister got the baby girl some cute outfits as she does a lot of the shopping for our nieces! So it worked out perfectly. We felt so complete and happy with ourselves that we didn't stop to think that maybe she would have left thinking that we were not going to come out and help at all. And sure enough when we went to the check out and finished we headed outside and looked for her until she saw us, I was relieved, as I had thought maybe she would have left thinking we were not going to help her. 

    So I was pleased when I seen her, and saw the tears in her eyes and instantly had some in my own. I told her to park the car as she was going to drive up to us, and than we explained what we got and hopefully they fit, I also told her not to cry because I didn't want to cry and I had my own son with me, (and this was a great teaching moment for him as well). So to get her distracted I told her how I got a chew toy for baby boy as she mentioned he was a few months old and knew if not now it would be a matter of time before needing it.

    I also saw him sucking on his fingers as well before I went into the store. She was so grateful and shocked and just was in disbelief as she had asked a lot of people for help and all they did was judge her and say nasty things. So she was expecting us to not help her and was preparing for it. She continued to share more of her experiences and gratitude for my sisters and my help. We even exchanged numbers so that we could keep in contact and see how she and babies are doing and if they made it safely to their new destination. 

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Whelp folks that is the end of my Pay it Forward experience, and we will continue to keep updates that we receive, hopefully soon. Thanks I hope you enjoy this experience I have shared with you all.